Lately I've even been avoiding people online. People I usually enjoy talking to, because I've found myself feeling like a total bother to them or like I might say the wrong thing .. There are two people I've un-blocked from my IM service because for some reason I feel safe. One I know exactly why .. I've known her for 15 years and she knows me, and she understands about anxiety. The other? Well I just feel like she gets it. I've known her a few years but only really gotten to know her beyond that same mutual friend I previously mentioned in the past six months or so, but she's pretty awesome and we get along well.
And then there's people I've known anywhere from almost a year but one of my favorite RP partners, to people I've known almost as long as the first person I mentioned.. who I usually get along great with, but for whatever reason I may or may not feel secure that they'll understand me where I'm at right now.
And so I hide.
B12 huh? Well.. I have some supplements for that here .. let's see what happens.
I want my bloody topamax back.