I don't really know what to say, but I feel like I need to write something. Someone has been very strange to me lately and I can't really figure out why. This person seems one way then the actions bear out another way, and it has really been bothering me. As I wrote before, mixed signals is a really big anxiety trigger for me given many years of traumatic experiences in just this sort of thing growing up. It is very hard for me to trust people or let anyone close, and when I do.. if they then leave, fine ... but if they act like they are trying to have some weird, mixed-signal dynamic it just... stresses me out to no end. I shouldn't care but the fact is I do and it bothers me greatly. There is no one I can fully and openly talk about this with, but writing here seems to help.